Mother's Words After the Suicide

 For those that couldn't be here today with us I felt your love from afar.  Wide awake, in the long hours of the night, I typed some words that I spoke today to share with you. 

My heart goes out to each and everyone of you as I know you are also hurting from this tragedy. 

I have been in your shoes struggling to find the right words, not sure what to say , wanting to provide comfort to someone who has suffered such a horrible loss. 

Kyle always struggled with words as sometimes they are just not there.

I want to let you in on a secret, it is the fact you took the time to talk to me that matters and not what you said. 

The words you actually say is not what I really hear, all I am hearing is someone cares and that is all I need. 

 Please do not worry about saying Kyle's name. I still like that name, and then I know he is not forgotten.  

Share your memories and stories with me in that brief moment it will be like he is still here. 

Let me share in the joy and accomplishments of your children. 

Sure there will be moments when my thoughts may drift to Kyle, but I need to experience the joy that is around and even more so now. 

So, do not worry about saying something wrong, far worse would be if you said nothing at all. 

I have felt my Heavenly Father's love for me through all of you and your loving acts of kindness and support. 

Again words fail to convey the depths of appreciation and gratitude I have for you. 

Sometimes words are hard to say. Sometimes words fail to convey our thoughts and emotions. Sometimes the words just don't exists , and I believe that is why we have hugs.

Hugs can convey so much more than just words. When you are struggling with words or whenever the mood strikes please just give me hug. 

Kyle left his print when he touched your heart. My heart will find that print, and together we will hug my son. 

 I am so grateful for all of you and the out pouring of love Heavenly Father has given unto me.  

Hold each other tighter, closer and longer. 

Treasure every moment together and make the most out of life.

Just for context:  I spoke the above words at Kyle's Celebration of Life