I had just returned to school and was two weeks into my first semester when suicide stole Kyle from me. The center of my heart was ripped out and while the hole will heal, the scar is deep, jagged, and will forever remain.

I missed three weeks of school, and when I returned all I could see was “Kyle” in my classmates. This scared me. All I could think about was who else was thinking about it and might act on it.  No mother should have to go through this. This led me on my greatest quest to understand suicide and my family’s failures to prevent my son’s.

My major is Advocacy and Mentoring, which is rooted both in Psychology and Sociology. As a university student, I had access to all available university academia studies, and understood them from multiple perspectives.

Additionally, I am not only a survivor of suicide because of my son. I am also a survivor of attempted suicide, all of which provided different perspectives to the understanding of these studies and new insights into them.

“Kyle in a Box” My Greatest Sorrow and Comfort
as displayed in our living room

I came to realize that prevention in suicide aimed at the masses will never be enough, because it is an individual choice. Additionally,  the best preventions are those aimed at preventing the contemplation of suicide, and not just supportive measures for those facing it.  

Kyle’s Greatest and Last Accomplishment
A High School Graduate

The most remote risk of suicide is still a danger to life. Life is unpredictable, and accepting life could push you to this point and your own risk of contemplating suicide gives you the power to prevent it. Suicide ends when each of us make the choice to live and are provided with tools for improving our outlook on life, our ability to cope with life, and an action plan should all else fail aimed at living life.